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I leave therapy that day angry and agitated mostly because I know she’s right.
How dare he be so selfish! How dare he shorten his time from us. How dare he expect US to take away from OUR lives to take care of him in his final days…
How do you explain to others that you just want to curl up and die but you don’t want to be dead? The thought of death is simply just wanting things to go away without having to explain why. I want to climb down into a hole and be left alone but I don’t want […]
I look at my mom with worry hoping she would catch on but she just flashes a smile at me. Jesus Christ. I can’t take this. She’s throwing away perfectly good food. My food. MINE! YOU’RE TAKING AWAY MY CONTROL!
A ball is churning. Rubber smell, Almost yearning. A small rash in my private place. A private place at my face. Questions attacking me. I cannot explain. Someone’s coming. This time, who’s to blame? False alarm. Memory goes black. Self protection. Body under attack. Child shuts down. Don’t bother with sound. No answers. You’re bound.
The first thing – well no – perhaps the third thing you would notice about me is my consistent inconsistencies. I feel like I should explain why I’m like this not out of necessity but because it’s the entire reason I decided to write this blog. I’m not alone which means others are not alone […]